Have you ever had that moment of clarity, when you realize that something you might have hoped for is never going to happen? When you realize how very wrong you were to give someone the benefit of doubt? When you finally understand that some people simply aren’t interested in truth but are content to continue spewing and believing lies and hatred?
I am having such a moment.
People I once knew, who were once close to me, so very close, would rather embrace a lie. Doesn’t matter what I say or do, the truth is irrelevant. Facts and evidence are irrelevant. I’ve been up most of the night debating different ways of responding to the hatemail I received yesterday, but in the end, it really doesn’t matter. How can you combat self-deception? The whole, “You can lead a horse to water” thing. I just don’t play that way. I was trying to leave the door open to a future relationship, but I see now that won’t ever happen.
So I am done. Done trying to convince them of the truth. Done trying to defend myself against a lie. Done hoping that one day the relationship will heal.
Time to move on! There is a certain freedom in the mourning, though. And I will cling to that.